Blogs by Ella Fisher

My new book is different from any other book I’ve written before.

This book is about, among other things, narcissism. About how some people are willing to walk over others, do anything to protect their image, and keep their reputation intact at all costs. To me, that felt like a very fitting topic for a book, because almost everyone knows someone like this in their environment. Preferably not, of course, but still 😉.

The idea to write about this topic came to me around the end of December 2025. What’s funny is that I already have the story in my head in broad strokes, but there are still missing pieces of the puzzle. And that’s exactly how I write. I start with an idea, and while I’m writing, more and more ideas begin to form. The story grows as I go.

I notice that my books are getting better and better. One of the main reasons is that I now use a more narrative style instead of relying heavily on dialogue between two or more characters. That wasn’t easy at first. To give you an idea: I used to write more in a kind of script or manuscript format. This book is teaching me to trust the story itself, not just the conversations inside it.

What this book is also teaching me about myself is that I am the exact opposite of a narcissist. I have absolutely no ambition to become one, nor do I want people like that in my family or close circle of friends. At this moment, the writing is going smoothly, and I haven’t run into any major obstacles yet, which feels really good. Of course, the question is always how long that will last, because yes, I do experience writer’s block from time to time.

Right now, writing feels natural. Effortless. And that’s a wonderful flow to be in.

What surprised me most is that I even came up with this idea. If you had asked me a year ago whether I would ever want to write about narcissism, or if I could even write a good story about it, my answer would probably have been:
a) I don’t have an idea for a new book yet, or
b) the topic doesn’t really interest me.

One belief I’ve let go of during this process is the idea that everything has to be perfect right away. It doesn’t. A story improves as you work on it. Writing a good book also means deleting, rewriting, and letting things go.

This book actually contains multiple themes: narcissism, love, but also the impact certain experiences can have on a person’s life long after they’ve happened. It’s about aftermath, about letting go, about learning to trust again, about healing yourself.

So far, I haven’t written a huge amount yet, but I do try to write one page every day. The scene that currently means the most to me is the moment when the main character sets a boundary for herself. This far, and no further. What the reader doesn’t know yet is how long it took her to find that boundary, and how intense the healing process after loss really was.

At this point, I don’t think there’s a character I struggle with. Usually, that part of writing comes naturally to me.

What I’m saying with this book, without literally saying it, is this: pay attention to the red flags in your life. This story is fiction, although it does describe what a narcissist is like and how you can recognize one.

The voice I constantly try to silence in my head says things like:
“This is badly written.”
“This will never become anything.”
“This book will never be finished.”

That negativity gets you nowhere. All it does is slow you down and block your own creative process. On the days when I don’t feel like writing at all, I write one sentence. It sounds strange, but at least I’ve done something. And that matters.

I know this book will be finished. When I look at the four books I’ve written before this one, I know I can do it. I did it then, and consistency really does make everything easier.

Working on this book has already changed me in a positive way:

• more perseverance and endurance
• learning to search for creative solutions
• mapping out toxic people, and trying to expose them just enough so they can’t hurt others anymore
  

What it has given me so far is an improved version of my writing and an improved version of myself.

I believe this will be a good book, also because it has a very exciting side to it. Unfortunately, I can’t say much more about that yet.

I write this book for everyone who enjoys stories about the romantic side of life, but who also understands that life comes with its share of complications and struggles. I sometimes compare my books to K-drama stories. The funny thing is that I’ve been writing these kinds of stories since I was a child, long before I even knew what a K-drama was.

I hope that every reader can truly see the story unfold in their mind, as if they’re looking at the world through my eyes.

One misconception I really want to break is the idea that you’re only a writer if you’re famous. There are so many incredibly talented authors in the Netherlands who might be just as good as Stephen King, or maybe even better.

What I want readers to understand about me is that I’m capable of writing about any subject. Whether it’s good or not is up to the people who read my work, but that I’m capable of doing it is a fact.

What I look forward to most once the book is finished is presenting it to a publisher. And hopefully, one day, it can be translated into English so my books can reach a much wider audience.

I’m already proud of how the characters are developing.

What I told myself when I started this project was simple:
You can already see it in your mind, so just start.

Keep an eye on this page 😊