Blogs by Ella Fisher

This isn’t an easy topic to write about, but I want to share it with you anyway. Maybe it will inspire you if something similar ever happens to you.

Do I see this as something negative? No. I want to take you with me to the moment I lost my job.

In January of this year, 2026, I was told that my position had become redundant. Not long after that, I heard there was no other role available for me within the new organization. When something like this happens, you enter a kind of grieving process. Sadness, anger, confusion, all kinds of emotions show up before you’re able to let go.

I have to say, I let go fairly quickly. I’m honestly surprised by how well I’m handling this. That’s exactly why I see losing my job as something positive, not negative. When one door closes, another one opens.

Of course I did feel stress for a while. For me, stress shows up as exhaustion, back and neck pain, and an overall feeling of being unwell. But the trick is to accept it. Let it be there. Talk to yourself kindly and allow yourself to feel what you feel, knowing that it’s just a phase and that it will pass.

What I wish I had done differently is being one step ahead of the company. I wish I had started applying for new jobs about six months ago, because honestly, the timing was already right back then. But it is what it is. I truly believe everything happens for a reason and nothing is random.

What I will miss the most are my colleagues. The Dutch team, but also the colleagues from other countries. Over ten years, I built strong and meaningful connections with them.

Without my job title, I am still Ella. A proud mother of two daughters. A loving girlfriend to my boyfriend. A soulmate to my best friend. Someone with humor. An author. A creative soul. Someone who loves togetherness. A daughter of the sweetest mother in the world. And a sister to the best brothers I could ever wish for.

My job gave structure to my days. Work and routine. But I never really saw it as work, because I did it with passion and joy. That matters to me, and I know I will find that again in a new job. I’m absolutely convinced of that.

When I look back at 2025, I struggled with loss and letting go. But already this year, I feel so much stronger. What I love most is that my thoughts have become more positive overall. Not every day, of course. There are moments when I think, what am I even doing this for? And that’s okay too.

What remains is more time with my daughters. My oldest no longer goes to daycare, and I’m incredibly grateful for that. That’s where the focus should be, I think. On what you’re grateful for. On what you still have. That deserves your attention. It sounds logical, right? Why waste your energy on something that isn’t worth it, when energy is so precious?

I have no problem telling people that I lost my job. It’s nothing to be ashamed of.

At the moment I’m writing this, it’s Thursday, January 29, 2026, and I’m still working 32 hours a week.

You can feel and see that tasks are slowing down and that you’re less involved in certain things, but that’s part of the process. I’m cleaning things up, preparing a proper handover, and archiving everything neatly.

Because I worked here for so long, I want to leave on a positive note. That’s how I want my colleagues to remember me. Not as Ella who became negative at the end. That’s where the real strength is, in everything you do. Stay positive. Head up. Keep moving forward. Let go of worries, because they truly don’t help you. Life is too short to hold on to resentment.

I decided to create a weekly schedule for myself, now that I have more time, and to actually stick to it. I think that will help me a lot during the quieter period that’s coming.

Things I want to do more often are writing, dancing because it brings good vibes, watching Korean drama series, meditating, maybe picking up yoga again, spending more time in the forest or on the heath with Beau, reconnecting with people I don’t speak to very often in a positive way, cooking more and trying new recipes, finally doing those household tasks I always postpone, organizing my walk in closet, and maybe decluttering.

By doing that, I’m creating space for new things in my life. I also want to bring the garden back to life, so summer can be celebrated at home because it feels warm and inviting.

Success means something different to me now. It means being able to say, I did that. I grew so much at my employer that I no longer have to limit myself to just one role, and I’m proud of that.

Financially, I’m not worried. I trust the future. Listening to inspiring podcasts about manifesting the life you want really helps me with that. I trust the universe. I know everything will work out.

What I am doing differently is buying less things that I don’t really need. I see that as a learning process too.

Everyone I’ve told about my situation has shown me nothing but support. Nothing but love. And that does me so much good. People say things like, you’ll find a new job in no time, think in possibilities, what do you want to do differently now and focus on that. People offer advice, help, and want to stay in touch. I’m incredibly grateful.

I’ve learned that I’m surrounded by a safe and loving environment. I already knew that, but in moments like this, it’s very comforting to have it confirmed again. I talk most openly with my family, of course. That’s where I feel completely at ease.

Perseverance, acceptance, letting go, and moving forward are qualities of mine that really stand out right now. And in the end, they only make me mentally stronger.

What feels exciting and a little scary about this phase is whether I’ll find that same loving work environment somewhere else. What I had was truly unique. There really isn’t another company like my last employer. Or maybe there is, and I just haven’t met it yet. Time will tell.

This period has taught me that we don’t really have control over life, and that makes it even more important to live in the moment. The story I tell myself is that this is only good for my personal growth and that I will come out of this stronger than before.

I hope that a year from now, I’ll have a job that’s just as inspiring and fulfilling as the one I had, and that I can honestly say, yes, this is how it was meant to be.

I will definitely use this pause and this rest wisely. What I hope will naturally happen, without forcing anything, is that I’ll worry even less than I already do and become even more creative.

This is the beginning of a new chapter for me. One that leads to a better future than I ever could have imagined ✨